had been thinking lots of stuff recently.
ytd night suffered from imsonia. tried to forgt stuff by chattin with ppl on msn. indeed, gt use, bt it dont last. even when studying im thinking of it. multi tasking -.-
chat till 4+ bt lay on bed cant sleep still

first thing
tis world's moral value decaying siao! generally boys nowadays wan nth more but sex. girls nowadays also... i know im in no position to comment all such thing. but rly sad case larh. boys wan horny girls then those horny girls lik being hong by them, what can i do. tats why. only way for world peace is when the world end. everyone die. no point living in such moral decay world anyway. if ths generation liddat liao, cant imagine th following generations. fuck tis world.

second thing
love, why love makes people suffer so much. remove my heart someone.i dont want it.
feeling really down. i know u will be reading tis, bt i have to say out
more than once i asked u question like tis, what makes u love me so long, and all those nonsense
i know u did lot more for me than i did for u. but arent u tired? coz i am.
i rmb long ago, since i knew your emotions i tried to make u happy, but i failed. then i gave up thinking. many things had been revolving around me. many questioned i asked mysself. should i or should i not give up tis relationship? i really dont know. there's a playful kid in me. i wanna play.really tired of maintaining everything. gt really tired of all these. u were never really happy. either udk what's happiness , or u dont feel so. i dont know why, i tried to find out, bt incapable to do so. now, i no longer know what is love. sad to say but yes. i cant answer myself, i love u or dont love u. it might be hurting, but i needa say out. happiness that cant be shared. sadness which cant be reached. there's lots of mysteries. love, what is it? i really dont know. i dont wanna love. im tired. i noe u are too. more than once i tried to ask u for break up, but u held me back. then everything repeat again. whats the point of it? love or not, i dont know. whenever i look in th future i see nth actually. i rly dk whats out future. in dream, yes, everything including u is everything i need. in reality. it's nt. there are much more other things. you know, recently, the way to let me think tat love is great is whenever im hallucinating, imagining everything to be tat perfect. the way u smiled, everything u do, the feeling when we hugged and kiss. its perfect. when i step bak to reality, everything is not. im nt afraid of reality. i hate it tats all.
the only thing that im happy is when im dreaming. illusioning

life is nth to me. nth fun bout life. nth fun bout everything.nth for me to remember..

everything= nothing