WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?!!

why cant i be like those who looks nice even w/o mae up?
had been telling myself that looks does not mean everything and i must cherish wad i have now, and not kip ranting+complaining about what i dun have.
i dont said it out, but it does not mean that i dont care anymore.
yes, i thought i dont. but at times, my past still do haunts me. simply, i cant get over it.
i have nobody to blame but th fking brain of mine. I NEED A BREAK!