lots of emotions in my mind today.
let's start on th PPD rehersal. well. it was damN FANTASTIC MAN!
get to walk up th stage X4! WHILE ppl get only one or 2 chances!!SHIOK?
curious to noe why?
things started liddat.

1st time: i was rather cheerful and happy. then th person shaking hand i noe him. well. i fooled around. he ask me say ty mdn. coz he is a guy, so i say ty sir. HA! THEN the teacher in charge asked me to do again, seriously(which made me buey song of course). my respones is, walau! i happy happy do gt wrong meh.

2nd time: th cher standard beside th guy which wer suppose to walk up, shake hand and say ty. i loudly said, THANKS Mdm! then she said :"NO! do it properly! again" fk her up side down man!i was like. wtf? u wher not happy leh. i said mdm

walked bak and i feel so lik walking down stage man!

3rd time: i dun rly rmb but i think it's wrong positioning. or i bowed incorrectly. she asked me to do again!

4th time: yea. walk and walk. shake hand. this time i said it in a very cute and sweet way. she said. good. very good. i repeated my sound to others, all have th same respones: WTF! SO ER XIN MAN!. yea, i noe it. but the teacher seems to like it so much. then i never c th big cross on th floor. and i walk to th incorrect position and bowed. well. she grab me on my hand and pulled me a little. i was like.hmm. wad i did wrong now. k this time, my fault.

but, she SUX! so bad of her to kip pinning on me!

oh.rmbered shenee said i walk like ah lian. but I NOT WAN ACT LIAN LAR ALRIGHT. the way i walk i like to drag my feet and swing my hands when i am cheerful. i walk straight when i not happy. with my head sticking on the floor. so ya. i will practice how to walk!! TAKE NOTE!! NOT I WAN STEP LIAN LAR!!!!urghh!!! hate the feeling of being misunderstood.~~

dun like that teacher lar! past year i get th award during rehersal oso play play liddat. so serious for wad sia. quite embarrassing. think th cher somehow pick on me. due to fiesta issue. sh kip at there shout the center girl wad u doing. what are u doing! i mean she PA JIAO or wad. cant c no teacher in charge to c ah! somemore is lik th 1st time we formally go on that stage! wad does she expect. in the end, i shouted at her.

well. this post is suppose to be a happy one. a good thing, i suddenly become more open minded. such lengthy post even i dont feel like reading. well. in general, i must thanks my mum for giving me support. talked to my mum on th way back home. which sort of like enlighten me. true, i have ppl who care for me around. lik dear dear and a few frens and most importantly my family. well.
i needa change. my attitude sux hard time man! so i must change.

lastly, sometime the way my attitude, esp to gl de teacher. coz i refuse to do the way they want me to. though it's childish i know, but i jus simply refuse to follow. i mean like REFUSE! u noe! REFUSE TO!!esp th teacher in charge of that fk ppd ceremony!!

neverthless, i will try to change my fking attitude.