im stuck at home, due to status as a mysian.haiz.
rly dont feel lik living again.
i wanted to go on, but when i look around, it makes me depress.

first, im always stuck at home.
secondly, somehow i feel tat frens are just frens. sad to say tat though. i feel alone at times. and i would have to force myself to think positively, which often dont work.i dont rly feel that connection between me and them. i know they are great. but there's a link lost. no cure to it rite?
thirdly, i seriously dk wad am i gona do about my future. for me is die early better.
next, i think i've messed my life up.

lastly, im so lost w/o him. i know it's my choice, but i thought i can handle it.
you said tat u dont feel th difference between now and th past. yea, possible. i nvr rly did played a good role as a gf. .
you said that u are fine. i'll be great to hear tat
you said tat my attitude make our relationship liddat. yea. i agree? i attitude sux like hell i know. same things go to my frenship, everything bye bye. so nw i feel alone, serve me rite, is it nt?
you said tht give us sometime, maybe i will change. let nature take course. well, for me, i would try my veery best to forgt. forgt bout our past. i know i cant chnge.
once, u said tat u love me. but sad to say, i cant feel love much.
been crying a lot these days, kept asking myself do i still love you? if yes,what is the feeling of love. if no, why am i crying?
th last 2 weeks or so of our love journey, i rly dk what is love. im lost.
may i ask u, do u rly love me? how is your love like?

tell me, someone, what is so great bout life. i see nth in it
im rly tired. no matter how long i slept. i dont wanna wake up. coz when im awake, it's hard to fall asleep again.

missing him really a lot. things aint easy as i thought.everywhere there's memories of ours. so hard to let go.